The Truth, According To Wuth...

One of the best moments in the movie "The Blind Side" was when Michael is in football practice and has some guy in a hold and instead of finishing the play, he gets distracted by a couple of loose balloons floating up into the sky. I watch that and it reminds me of many moments in my life. I actually remember in my second blog about Larchmont's Brick House, I got distracted from the topic at hand and ended up blogging about two flies mating on a window sill. I am finding that lately, I am more easily distracted than normal. Some may question if I have ADHD which I do joke about at times, but I don't have it. I tested and passed. I then acted my way through anther test and failed to see if medication would help and although it did a little bit, it wasn't worth the clenched jaw all day and feeling like I needed to smoke a carton of cigarettes. I needed to rest every other day from the adderral hangover. For people who don't need it, adderrall is legal crac...

Once in a while, we all appease our inner rockstar and say to ourselves, "I don't feel like going out, I just wanna wrap myself in a snuggie and watch movies" but, we go out anyway. After an exceptionally awful day, I found myself in this very position. Sometimes, no matter what you do, you can't possibly do right by anyone. By anyone, I mean the people that don't respect and value you for what you have to give in this world. Feelings are powerful little buggers that creep deep within your being and try to take over every little action that you are normally capable of doing without compromise. Feelings are what make you, well... you. It is so easy to let your feelings rule your life because it is all encompassing. It takes over your mind, body and soul. You feel...and when you become aware of the vulnerability, no matter what emotion, the first instinct is to succumb and dwell in your little land of emotion. Tonight I made plans to attend an event not knowin...

I still remember being a little girl with a lot of wants and needs. It didn't matter what it was that I wanted, it was why I had to have it. You know, because I would just die without it! My life would be over! I was pretty spoiled as a kid but I would like to think that was because I was very well mannered. I may have been the only kid that would call their friends houses and say, "Hi! May I speak with _____ please?" I got that from my sister. I don't know where she got it from but I remember watching her and thinking to myself that it sounded real nice. Like a tall cool glass of chocolate milk. That may or may not have been a reference to black men... The point is, if I asked for something, my mom would say, "how do you ask for something?" and I would get red faced and embarrassed that I forgot and look up and say, "Pleeeeeeeasssse". If that were to score me what I wanted, she would remind me by saying, "What do you say?", and I...

Now that I am on my way to becoming a professional dater, I will not deny my friend Laura's request to continue blogging a bit more about dating in the modern world. My overall opinion is a bit biased because I live in a city where commitment and relationships don't really seem to be top priority. But, I think that most of what I have to say is true for wherever you may reside. Based on my experience, this is my truth about guys and dating. This one is for the ladies however, I will indeed have a blog for the gentlemen readers soon. 1. If he is sweet to your face and then consistently blows you off - he does not have any interest. This shouldn't be confusing but it is common for women to fall for it all the time and make excuses for the man that is always getting away. If he is constantly making plans for the two of you that never happen, he is with someone else doing what he dreamed up for the two of you. 2. If all he does is text you and doesn't call - he is...

Although I took a brief hiatus from writing my blog, I have been filling my time with a number of new experiences to blog about. Last week I encouraged facebook friends, twitter followers, and my blog readers to let me know what it is about life they would like me to blog about as I was struggling for a place to start. I have decided that I will start with a topic we all love to read about...the ups and downs, highs and lows, pride and humiliation of dating. When it all comes down to it, no matter how self-sufficient a woman is, the majority of women like to be taken care of and wooed. Yes, wooed. Is wooed code word for celibacy until you drop the L word or the commitment card? No. Does it mean be given a WOO card for access to discounts in my almost hometown of Worcester, MA? No. It just means get to know the girl for cryin out loud and don't ask her on a date if you aren't really interested in dating in the first place. A little over a month ago I had three of my close...

Emma Claire Wuth, or Eclaire as I will call her for now, was born January 7, 2011 at 20.5 inches and 6.10 lbs. Being a 7-11 baby, I will never forget her birthday :) All of my life I have been surrounded by people who have kids, want kids, love kids and want everything to do with kids. I have never understood what that means until now. My entire life I have been super awkward around children; not knowing how to talk to them, understand what they are saying, or what they need. I think I have been adult child all of my life so when I am around a child I have never met before, I feel like that awkward 7 year old in the corner trying to make new friends. Do you remember what it felt like on the first day of school, or the first day of any new class or meeting for a new hobby you picked up? You feel anxiety about not knowing anyone, how they will respond to you, or whether or not you will be liked? Well, that is how I feel around kids. They have the ability to sniff out fear of not ...

Sometimes... when your heart hurts, you feel like your whole body is about to fall apart. Like, your knees will give out, your legs won't work, your brain will no longer let you control your emotions and it will show all over you. It will show in your eyes, your skin, your hair, your posture, your mouth, and in the decisions that you make. I have spent my entire life protecting my heart and trying to mask my feelings from the world and only feel in the privacy of my own company. What have I learned from this? I have learned that by doing this, I am hiding and not healing. It is ok to feel the emotions that can be embarrassing; betrayed, lonely, like a failure, not good enough, put down, forgotten, used, manipulated, etc. What is not ok is letting those that assist you in feeling that way, get away with it. By "get away with it", I don't mean "get even". I mean tell them. Tell the person how they made you feel. It took me 6 months to speak my mind t...